Permanent Interest
Today something happened and really gave me an emotional jolt in the area of friendship and trust. Kept wondering for the past weeks, should I even be bother to think and get myself angry for mundane things that I felt not right and unfair to me. One of my friend said that I am self-centered, so have been trying to change that. Its not all about me right? Even if its my career and my life at stake right? I felt that all these doesn't matter anymore. Like former PM said, 'There is no permanent friends or foes, just permanent interest.' Trying to look at things at a wider perspective and things really cleared up for me. We are born alone, and we will die alone. No kinship or friendship will be that strong to walk with you on the road to the netherworld. Seriously need some time to think about whether the reason for my anger is the right thing. Does it really matter to me that much that I am been treated unfairly? I am confused, with so many years of education, are they teaching me the right thing? For a person who knew clearly how the bureaucratic system works in the organisation but yet chose to skip the chain of command. I am not sure whether am I right or wrong, but this does concerns me. Why am I always the last one to know about things that concerns me or involve me? Am I being too self-centered again? I hope not.
PS. So long and thanks for all the fish.
PS. So long and thanks for all the fish.
posted by kacez @ 5:44 PM
1 Comments:
At 3:09 PM,
Anonymous said…
Sometimes,you are not the last to know. Often, you maybe the first, but, you skip on the oppurtunity and privilege of it by centering all attention to yourself, and what you need for the transcient that you are in, fucking your future up - and realising you are the last to know it.
Sometimes its not always crystal, but a little reading in between is mandatory. I would not even say reading in between as its really clear signs in life mostly - you dont always have to be told, sometimes its just obvious! Thus, it is there, just that you may have chosen not to absorb it, only to realise that in the end, its really then all about you - and how you played the game, is how the game will play you.
Sometimes, you just never even know there was a sign!
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