Maturity

Today while reading the business times and watching channel news asia, I came to realise one point. Its about mature thoughts, behaviour and critical thinking. I for one really not sure what people meant by maturity. Is it being able to think like an adult? That I really have to object. Take for example, me, a stubborn person who resists change especially not for the good of myself but for others. Given such conditions, even if I am 80 years old, due to my resistance to change or grow up, my thoughts would still be that of a teenager. People say experience especially bad ones make people change. And hence a experienced person. If I were to resist to change then regardless how much things or unfortunate events I experienced, I would still be the same. Thinking to same as before. Being able to change is good especially for growth in the mind and body. As the saying goes 'Change is the only constant', by being stubborn I forever will be in the teenager state of mind, with the same earning capabilities, same mentality, same ambitions and even the same expectations in a relationship.

Then there is another thing in mind. Why is it there is always a particular someone that is able to ask that question that is so crucial to the cause? How come they know when is the time to ask what questions? These also come down to experiences. If you are experience in this area, whenever there is something amiss you would notice it almost instantly. Then the rest of the crowd would be there thinking 'wow this person really know what to ask' or 'why didn't I think of that' or even ' oh no he is gonna make this session longer by asking more questions'. Also to be able to spot things that is crucial, you must be experienced and educated. Therefore, learning is also changing. To learn something new is like changing for the better. As with knowledge is power. Also people always say learn from your mistakes. That is very true, by learning from mistakes, one has changed to be better equiped in that particular situation.

With this I end my post. Today I wasted a great opportunity to short a particular stock as it went down almost 80 points. Education and experience gives foresight.

Emotion Intelligence

For my first post, emotional intelligence. Recently I read this book on emotional intelligence, that talks about emotions as some chemical reaction in the brain. It is very true. There is this example of a guy that got his amygdala damaged due to some illness. Since then, he has no desire to do anything, not even to eat or drink or to go out and have fun. There is totally no desire or whatsoever in anything. The only thing that is going through the mind is just thoughts of nothing. There is no desire even to ask WHY.

For me I personally felt that I really needed that. To experience happiness one must know and even experience what is sadness, pain, hurt. For me, I rather forgo happiness, if I know eventually it is gonna hurt me. But I can't. I am a sentimental person, emotions is every part of my life. In the event of searching for happiness, I got myself hurt time and again. Seriously hoped that life would be in utopia, where there is no happiness, and also no pain, no sadness and no hurt. That is exactly the same as the guy that his amygdala is damaged.

Fear is just False Evidence Appears Real. For me I think fear is all in the mind, especially in the amygdala. An example of a past painful experience.

For those who thinks that a relationship or a friendship is like a game. A game when there is a specific time to end. Then I should say don't mess with me, if you so much so want to do that to me, why not save me the trouble and kill me now. For I cannot enudure the torment of longing for a lost love. A love I thought would withstand time. I am very disappointed. Especially in myself, myself for faithfully believing that everything could be worked out.