Too Emotional

Last night, my friends saw this accident on the road and decided to pull over and see if the victim need any help. This is the spirit that is worth praising. Remembering a few years back, my friend Prem told me about this incident he saw. There is a group of people beating up a poor chap. Of course personal dispute, we outsider shouldn't meddle butt the use of violence is definitely wrong. He said 'How do we expect these people to defend the country in time of war, when in time of peace they are hurting one another.'

This made me think whether my effort to defend the country is worthwhile or not. How can I defend this country from external threats when there are people hurting their fellow countryman. Its like no matter how well I tried to protect the surface, the core is already rotten. Sometimes I think whether or not should I continue to pursue a life in the public service. Trying to be impartial as not everyone is like those people. There are those that selflessly help others regardless of race, language or religion.

At times I felt that I am too emotional to be in the public service as I think of things through a more emotional channel than the rational ones. There are recent event although short, they did play a significant part in my growing up process. From all these I realised that I am not capable enough to perform important task or to be a decision maker. Maybe after I had overcome all these emotional hurdle then I will consider taking on such task.

PS. Regardless how much I still like you, I just want you to be happy. I respect your decision.

Empty Shell

Just the other day I was reading this article on the empty shell company. Defintion, it is basically a company that don't have an office, product, employees and such. These companies only have certain amount of funds as capital. The company then go public and aim to raise a certain amount of money. Then with the amount of funds gathered, the company will go on to acquire other company. Its like a business set up to acquire other business with the use of limited funds. Interesting way to start a business especially when you are out of ideas.

PS* Kids do not try this at home, apparently this only work in certain countries.

Living the responsibility.

Just finish watching this movie called Musa. Borrowed it for quite some time, I think it has been like 2 years. Sorry Derrick, now I can return you the show but I don't think will make any difference also.

In the movie, there is this scene where a child ran out and tried to hit the enemy soldier. Of course he ended up killed almost instantly. Then this thought flash before me. The fear of death. Apparently when we were young, the pain and death doesn't seems to matter very much. We don't know the meaning of death and so we basically live our lives like there is no tomorrow. But as time passes, we begin to learn about things like liability and commitment. So eventually when we grow up, the fear starts to surface and grow. Especially the case for married people, those with children and of course aging parents. Then I realised that I am afraid to die solely because when I am not around what will happen to my parents, spouse and children? Not like I am the sole breadwinner or anything but still we've been together for decades.

Once my friend said to me, 'Since you do not fear death, then why are you afraid of living?' Apparently living is a lot harder then dying, but as human we always like to choose the easier way out. Former PM Goh said during National Day rally, 'We don't want you to die for the country, we want you to live for the country.' So maybe we should stay alive and take responsibility for our country, family and of course for those people that cared.

Launch of Evolution 9

Today went to see the launch of Mitsubishi Evolution 9. Nothing much actually, just that it has a MIVEC engine and best of all its manual. MIVEC engine is known for its fuel economy and speed, the fastest in the series I can say. Mostly it comes in automatic transmission, but for Evo9 its a manual transmission. The show was fantastic as drivers showed everyone how to do the 'donut'. Impressive but dusty and smelly. Got to see one of the oldest Evo here which is the Evo3. They showed Evo3, Evo4, Evo5, Evo6, Evo7, Evo8 and of course Evo9. Its like the evolution of evolutions. Got to try one of them these days, but they say once you drive a Evo you might not want to drive others. Got to see it for myself.

Rag & Bone Man

Around my place there is this old man, not very old but probably in his late fifties. He collect old newspaper and any paper based publications, in my country we called them the rag and bone man. At least twice a month, we would see him coming around shouting 'Old newspaper...' He is very friendly to everyone and everyone liked him. There are times I would see him mumbling or talking to himself. But if you were to listen closely, he is not talking to himself. He is chanting the Buddhist scripture. This made me think alot.

I was wondering whether he has a clearer purpose in life as compared to me. Everytime I see him, he looks happy and the chanting doesn't seems to stop. Every little comment he gives may sound ridiculous at first but it is wise once you begin to understand it. It seems that the ultimate truth in life resides in the simplicity of living it. This is definitely something that couldn't be explained by science or comprehend by the complex yet emotional human mind. You have to live it to experience it. Learn it or not its up to you.

Greatness

Yet another great person had passed on. Feeling sad is normal for everyone, especially those of us that were close to that person. These few years we had seen many great people pass away. The main concern now is that with their departure, what had we learn? From their past and present, their values in life. Has the world produce or educate enough people to be there in their absence? Not to be substitute, but to be there to balance the loss. With the loss of their greatness, do we have enough capable people to fill that gap?

One last lesson before he left us, 'We come into this world with nothing and we will leave with nothing...before we leave, we return to society what it has given us'.

Right thing?

A lot of time I hear this quote 'Doing the right thing is different from doing things right'. Seriously, till now I still don't know how right is right, and what things need to be done right. Of course, its always about those other things in life that is not govern by the law. I definitely is a law-abiding citizen. There are just some things that doesn't come with a rule or law. For some people they know what they are doing, because according to them its the right thing to do. For me, its like looking for my purpose in life, always using other people's guidelines. Maybe its time I set my own guidelines and rules. Doing what I felt is right, isn't it too irresponsible? Should my rules accommodate others? By being too accommodating is it my own rules? Confusion? Things are always like cooking, too much will make the food taste funny and yet too little will make it taste bland. Then we come back to the same problem again, how much is the right amount? If I say I should have it to my own liking, but my life is not about me alone only. There are those people that brought me up and made me what I am today, should I ignore their taste buds? Quoting from the movie 'Starship Troopers', freedom is doing what you like and what you want, but not at the expense of others. Maybe its easier to follow that rule and still live life decently.